kill me now. (qmoi)

i hate my life.
i love the pain.
i hate my self.
i love my blade.

you dont see my hurt.
or my broken heart.
dont see me cry
or see my scars.
dont say you love me.
when you couldnt care less.
i cared so much.
you just wanted sex.

am i anything to you?
anything at all?
i feel so broken
like an ugly barbie doll

theyre so perfect
i am not
im stuck on display
im on the spot

you watch all my pain
my heartbreak and strife
youll never stand by me
or call me your wife

at one point i think
of all our happy times
now i sit down
and just want to cry

im hurting so bad
i hate my life
you sit and yell
and watch me cry

but dont care anymore,
ill end my life.

<3