blood..

i start to shake as the blade touches my skin
start to wince when it falls from the blade
start to smile as i go numb
youre not the only one
ill show you my pain, cuz you hurt me
ill hurt myself
i see you laugh with her
one slit
i see you touch her
two slits
i heard you fucked her
theres three..
&& now shes pregnant.
(your pain; not mine)
you asked her to marry you?
by then,
im dead.

maybe one day...(qmoi)

maybe one day ill see you on the street; well say our akward hellos, and walk away.. maybe well cry; maybe well smile, and just remember that at one time we were happy together, but then everything happens for a reason..doesnt it?
-quote me on it

kill me now. (qmoi)

i hate my life.
i love the pain.
i hate my self.
i love my blade.

you dont see my hurt.
or my broken heart.
dont see me cry
or see my scars.
dont say you love me.
when you couldnt care less.
i cared so much.
you just wanted sex.

am i anything to you?
anything at all?
i feel so broken
like an ugly barbie doll

theyre so perfect
i am not
im stuck on display
im on the spot

you watch all my pain
my heartbreak and strife
youll never stand by me
or call me your wife

at one point i think
of all our happy times
now i sit down
and just want to cry

im hurting so bad
i hate my life
you sit and yell
and watch me cry

but dont care anymore,
ill end my life.

<3

Stuck on display... (qmoi)

stuck in this house
of pain and dismay
just like a doll
im stuck on display
dress me up
and we can go play
ill do whatever it takes
to be off display
stuck in this life
with oh so much pain
stuck in my own hell
im suffering

a slit to each wrist
i dont clean my wound
too many more slits
i should be gone soon.

im sick of this life.
im sick of the pain.
tired of being your barbie.
thats stuck on display.
i do what you wish,
and wish that you may.
take me home.
since im on display.

i may not be perfect.
or the right type.
but i can be there for you.
when youre scared at night.

you can dress me up,
you can throw me away.
i really dont care.
so long as im off display.

i dont like the looks,
the stares
what they say
the stares may be blank
but i see through them

i cant get out
of this silly store
it may just be life
it may be more.
.<3

Lots of random poetry..

1. searching my soul
looking for answers
all i found was a blade
i smoke my cancer
maybe it will take away the pain
and solve my problems.
maybe my death
will do the same.


2. why should i cut? you hurt me much more than my blade ever could...


3. teenage romance - all its come to is this, broken hearts, forgotten promises, and hurting wrists..
.<3

This Girl... (qmoi)

this is the girl who hides her pain
uses the razor when suffering
takes long walks, to cry in the rain
this is a girl
who has the strength
she'll keep going, to any length.
this is a girl
with lots of pain
i need my blade.
...im suffering.
<3

Pain covers me. (qmoi)

pain falls over me
just like rain
you see my scars
but dont feel the pain
you see me cry
say "i wanna die"
you sit and watch
as pain covers me.
<3